Love makes the world go round

Looks like you’re doing just fine without me.

heyitswendyy:

tiffanieefoshizzle:

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with-all-myheart:

And I spent the night drowned in thoughts of you.

2168.) There’s a part of me that’s telling me to keep holding on.

paintmyworlddarkblue:

yourlovelylies:

(via blogconfession)

My Confession.

yellowchalk:

You wonder why I don’t talk to you anymore, and please believe me when I say it’s not that I don’t want to , it’s just that everything I want to say, I can’t tell you anymore.

This.

boygirlconvos:

girl : Hi boyfriend <3

boy : Hi girlfriend <3

haha remember when we use to do this? aha. Guess we won’t be able to anymore=\

I need to

• Let go of the past.
  
  
• Not think about anything.
  
  
• Focus on something else.
  
  
• Accept the fact that you probably lost interest.
  
  
• Accept the fact that you probably don’t feel the same.
  
  
• Accept the fact that this gives us the opportunity to see other people.
  
  
• Stop being so clingy.
  
  
• Stop missing you.

We knew it was going to happen soon.. but I didn’t want it to happen so I tried my best to save our relationship. I tried opening up more, I tried doing things that would make you happy, I tried..but I guess it wasn’t enough. And now I’m just left here wondering.. if I had taken the chance to tell you how I really felt about the situation.. would it have made a difference? If I told you that I absolutely miss holding hands with you, hugging you, kissing you, talking to you, laughing with you. Would it have made a difference? If I told you that I thought if we both made an effort, if we both try.. that we could go through anything. As long as we both tried… would it have made a difference? If I told you that you could talk to me about anything, that you shouldn’t worry about feeling stupid or hiding anything… would it have made a difference? If I told you all my bottled up feelings that I have kept inside of me for the past 4 weeks.. would it have made a difference? If I told you “Right now I just want you to stay. Okay?” Would you? Would anything I told you make a different outcome then how things are now? I absolutely miss the old conversations that we used to have. You say that you couldn’t really talk to me, even before. I wanted to laugh because honestly? It seem like you could but then again.. you were the one that told me guys are good actors.& Maybe that’s what you were and still are. A good actor. Even so,  I miss the conversations that showed you care. I miss you calling me “babe” or “dear”.. it made me smile like no tomorrow and hearing you say those words.. made my day. Remember when you used to aim me first? Made me happy because it sorta showed that you wanted to talk to me. But it’s not like that anymore=\ & I utterly hate every part of it. I remember hearing my phone ring and hoping it was you.. and being slightly disappointed when it wasn’t. I miss you reminding me to make a wish on 11:11 even though you didn’t believe in wishes.. you still supported me in this little action. Although it has only been a day since you said “I think it’s better if we were just friends.” I already miss you & everything else that I was able to do when we were “together”. Ima miss being able to leave you hella long ims that were all over the place just because I missed you. Ima miss hearing the words, “I miss you babe.” or seeing the “;D” in our conversation. Ima miss reaching for your hand and holding it telling you, “Sorry. My hands are cold XD” Ima miss you telling me that I’m ridiculous..Ima miss a lot of things.  I could sit here and rant on and on to my friends about your flaws but in the end, end up telling them that you were a jerk and loser.. but you were a jerk and loser that made me happy. Everyone is telling me that I should try to not think about it, forget about it, that there are other guys other there for me. They’re right there are other guys but honestly..At the moment I don’t even care about the other guys. I like you. A lot. but now that we’re just friends. Where does that leave me? ..it leaves me in a pathetic position. Could and would you take the time out to see how important you are to me? Not thinking about you or anything is proving to be a difficult task.. especially when every little thing reminds me of you. Almost everything.. my backpack, my ringtone, the hello kitty doll you gave me, the park, little things yknow. Aha. If you talked to any of my friends you would be amazed how much I talk about you. I could go on for hours. Hours man hours.. Did I ever tell you that you were on my mind almost 24/7? If I didn’t then I guess it’s too late. I regret not telling you everything.. I feel stupid for not taking the risk of opening up. And perhaps in a sense.. I did sorta love you. But it’s too late for that right.. =\ Too late to tell you anything. Because we’re just friends. I wish I had the guts to tell you at that very moment. “You want to be friends? I’m sorry. I can’t do that. I can’t do  that because I’m falling for you & I wanna be more than friends.” But how selfish would that have been. Very selfish. You mean a lot to me..and I’m sorry if I didn’t make that clear enough. I wish you had heard the words I told my friends when they told me that maybe you weren’t the “one”..that why would I need the “one” when you made me happy.  In reality, I bet we could have worked this out if we both sat down and talked. But I guess we both couldn’t do that. Honestly.. if I had my way right now.. we would both be on the phone, talking and texting all night long just so we could get past that communication barrier. We would tell each other how lucky we are to have each other. We would treasure each moment. We would go through the fights and obstacles..together. We would show everyone that even if we weren’t meant to be together forever.. that we were satisfy with being together at the time being. I wish someone would tell you all this or even show you this post or anything. & I’m saying this from the bottom of my heart..CLow, I wish you knew how I felt. I hope your happy because that’s all I really want.

• First time we hung out and you freaking ditched me @ CT. Then you called and was like “Where are you? I’m coming after you.” Got me hella pissed yknow. But then we met up again and you said sorry. Amazing how one simple phrase could make everything better right? And as we were walking down this one hill you were like “WAIT! Let me show you my shirt.” HAHA you unzipped your jacket and it was a shirt that says ‘FREE HUGS!’ Then proceeded to ask for a hug.
  
  
• New year’s eve. You invited me to this New year eve’s party. I was hesitant to go, but somehow I ended up going. It was sorta awkward.. but it was all good. haha Your brother made fun of you because apparently you were ‘blushing’ AHA. You refused to go to the bathroom because you didn’t wanna leave me alone. After 15 minutes of holding it in. You decided to go.
  
  
• New Year’s Day. Told me to go to sunset. I questioned you because honestly I thought you were going to ditch me. Got lost going to the sunset and ended up walking 10+ blocks just to meet up with you. You took me to the beach.. while it was raining. haha kept repeating “It’s just sprinkling” when it was basically pouring. I told you that my hair was horrible when it was wet. You laughed and said “its not that bad” but trust me.. it was. Being the stupid girl I was I didn’t bring a jacket -.- so I was freezing my ass on the beach. I kept complaining that I was cold and that I wanted to leave. You told me “wait let me write something first.” You first wrote “Tiffany loves CFC (Chinese Fried Chicken)” I laughed and went off, drawing smiley faces all over the beach.. and then when I went to where you were guess what I saw? “Will you be my girlfriend?” HAHA. I couldn’t believe it. I told you that I would answer once you wrote it again, but neater. So you did and I said yes…Being the jerk you are.. right after I said yes.. you smothered sand all over my arms and ran away laughing. Once I caught up with you you brushed the sand off my hand and gave me my jacket & took me home.
  
  
• I remember getting my red AA jacket.. I was so excited. I wore it one day while hanging out with you and you were telling me a story about how some guy died because he got fucked by a horse LOL Suddenly you decided to pull one of the string and I moved and it completely came out.. Boy was I pissed. You kept saying.. “Let me put it back in your hole.” hahah
  
  
• You have a thing with taking me to the beach while its raining. I remember walking back one day while soaking wet because yet again.. No jacket -,-” and you kept saying “You’re making me wet.” LOL Dork.
  
  
• First time holding your hand.. <3 aha. We were on one of the nob hill’s hill. We were sorta fighting on where to go. I wanted to go to the park but you had to get downtown to meet your mom so I agreed. But then you called me stubborn and told me to just go to the park. I said no. and you siad something pretty mean.. “This is why I dont like you.” and I got hella mad so I started walking down the hill but then you pulled me back, holding my hand <3 and was like “Im sorry. Let’s just go to the park.” We held hands all the way there.
  
  
• I remember the first time getting your number. AHA. I was like a childish school girl. Squealing and telling my P.E friends. haha It was the day of the Autumn Ball. You told me to call you and talk to you. I didn’t but still.. I had your number!!
  
  
• That time we sat on the bench on that reallly nice hill with the reallly nice view. haha you kept saying “If I was black this would work out.” HAHA Made no sense at all but funny as hell. and then you were like ” I like the way you hold my hand.” Like WTF?
  
  
• Remember when you use to wanna read my tumblr? I had no idea why but I told you anywayz. I was afraid you would think it would be so girly but instead you told me you found it “interesting”
  
  
• We used to fight about 11:11 all the time. How you said that I couldn’t make more than one wish but, I said I could because some rules were meant to be broken. && then you told me that my wishes weren’t going to come true because of that. I guess maybe you were right. My wishes stop coming true.
  
  
• I remember you walking through the TL. We were holding hands so tight I couldn’t help but smile.
  
  
• Reading” I wish your neighborhood wasn’t so dangerous.” <3
  
  
• When you got jealous & was like “It depends are you hanging out with a boy?”
  
  
• When you fucked up my converse by stepping on ketchup packages. and then you were all like “It’s all my fault. I’m sorry.” haha. Saying that you’ll get me new shoes.
  
  
• Daybreakers(= Aha. Rested on your shoulders the whole time. Holding hands, kisses on the cheeks <3 Those were the days right? aha Lost my first kiss to you-___- I DONT EVEN LIKE POPCORN. LOL.
• On the bus;
  you:”I can read palm.”
  Me: “Oh really?”
  You: “Yeah.. want me to read your future?”
  Me: “Uh sure..”
  You: -takes hand- “Do you know what this line means?”
  Me: “No?”
  You: ” I don’t either… I just wanted to hold your hand.”
  
  
• Walking through sunset one day and we saw a cat and you just kept like staring at it like “wtf?” and I walked ahead of you. You ran behind me and gave me hug <3
  
  
• “What what in the butt.”
  
  
• “What type of b’s produce milk? “boobies.” LMFAO
  
  
• When you worried about me.
  
  
• “I like it when you call me your boyfriend.”
  “I like it when you call me your girlfriend.”
  
  
• Remember just lounging around @ Calvin’s house watching Transformers, playing shootings games. Haha hella owned me in every game.
  
  
• I remember when you got jealous of me and Calvin and was like hella mad @ me. Made me hella wanna cry. Instead of just leaving though I waited for the L with you until you got on. and you were like “If you didn’t care.. we wouldn’t have sat there.”
  
  
• The first time you called me “babe”<3
  
  
• Saying that you miss me and that you’ll be thinking about me all day.
  
  
• Saying that you would walk in the rain for me because I’m your girlfriend and you miss me.
  
  
• Calling me dork, loser, babe && cute
  
  
• Texting you’re friend and calling me your stupid gf. aha(;
  
  
• Telling me that I’m “ridiculous”
  
  
• That time when we were cuddling in the back of your mom’s car while playing with your itouch? haha we kept like throwing beans off the screeen and shit and you were like putting your thumb up /down haha Cuuute <3 
  
  
• When it took me 30 minutes just to get you to go into the Hello Kitty store and then apologizing for putting you through that torture. But the you telling me that “I should have went with you because you’re my gf and I wanna make you happy” <3
  
  
• I still have the scar you some how gave me while we had a tickle fight -___-;
  
  
• Omg I remember the times my shoe laces were untied and you would always be like bending down saying “Here. Let me tie them.”
  
  
• When you would randomly just grabbed my waist and hug me.
  
  
• When you kissed my forehead<3
  
  
• When we fell asleeep on the schoolbus. & you kissed me awake.
  
  
• Stopping in the middle of the streets because you ‘wanted to get my attention’
  
  
• Always wanting to carry me. Because you wanted to try it like how it is in the “movies”
  
  
• Telling me that viet rice didn’t exist.
  
  
• “Good game noob.” // “Good going noob.”
  
  
• When I first put that note that said “Happy one month” in your locker.
  
  
• Napping in your jacket.
  
  
• When you asked me to sing and I said no because I thought I sounded horrible but you were like “I bet you sound good.” 
  
  
• When you called me a hobo-___-
  
  
• When you used to tickle me.
  
  
• Remember when I called you a pimp? and then you said, “well you’re my pimpcess.” aha. Made me laugh.

• We used to only worried about being with each other 24/7<3
  
  
• When you wanted to visit my grandma with me
  
  
• When you were “looking” for coins so I could go on the bus
  
  
• When you kissed me before heading off to class
  
  
• HAHA when you thought I was “saggin” and pulled up my pants.
  
  
• telling me i didn’t know how to hold bags
  
  
• When you didn’t want me to walk home because you thought it was dangerous
  
  
• When I was leaning against you and we were sharing one xbox controller. HAHA you were teaching me how to play Left 4 Dead. 
  
  
• Telling me that if zombies were to ever attack that I would be the first to die. But then before they got me you would save me(: 
  
  
• When you tilted my chin up so I could look at you and then kissing me <3